Archive | September, 2012

My Flower With a Missing Petal

28 Sep


She was a revalation.

She came to me as such.

With gentle gaze my eyes could not reckon, not even with mountainous effort.

She covered my sight like a rolling mist, she was absolute, her sweetness shook me.

I wanted this woman and I would have this woman, like long drinks of cold water when only water would do.

My thoughts wrapped around her and we became fused and she devoured me.

I loved her like light, life and upliftment, she could not commit, something had been spoiled and she saw that something in me.

Long hours I reasoned, neither day nor night brought forth resolution.

Had guilty pleasure given way to simple pleasure?

I want to need her, I need to want her. It’s what I’m here for or why am I here?

How could I unlock her sacred heart and move in?


The secret would remain so and I would remain only half known.

My flower was still my flower and her stains she will not allow to be washed away.

My eyes cannot see but her glory as she puts her hands up to cover them.

My mouth speaks of my love for her as she silences me with a kiss.

Her hurt I can now feel and I let her be, I let her go.

When will she let her hurt go and let herself live?

this piece came to me as a friend and I were talking about past relationships. We came to the conclusion that most of the women we had known and loved had been abused. Either sexually or what have you. They often don’t feel like they should be loved or could be loved. I want all of them to know that you can be loved and will be loved if you let that happen.  

I can remember when

27 Sep

this may enhance your reading pleasure:


I decided to re-post it and give it another chance to be viewed by some who may have missed it. It’s about my grandparents and my time spent with them down in rural S.C.  Image

I can remember when.

Fresh sheets hung on the line, the sunlight and breeze transformed them into curtains to another realty.

I can remember when.

The lane, dusty and narrow, like a old ribbon thrown away and left for something new, welcomed the bared feet of playing children.

I can remember when.

The hem of her skirt was my life line and I held on because my life she knew and she loved me.

I can remember when.

Dew wet grass was my threshold to a day filled with misadventure and mystery, if only in a child’s mind.

I can remember when.

He would come home and we would meet him and pillage the unsung hero’s pockets for treasure and treats. We listened for that voice that meant so much.

I can remember when.

We played in the sun and time would diminish and life was all that we could see. It was up the lane and around the house and all were decades apart. Life was play.

I can remember when.

She left us, called to the upper room, she would not stay here. Spirits as bright as hers are for the world. The anchor gone, we would scatter.

I can remember when.

Days grew short and no more misadventures, all mysteries known. Children no more.

I can remember when.

He left us, a hero fallen, dusty lane settled, treasures picked over, treats spoiled. An anchor gone and we would scatter.

I can remember when.

I left for the last time, no longer a boy, not yet a man and the world in front of me. Didn’t look back, nothing left to see.

EARTHLING: a prisoner’s screed

21 Sep

this may enhance your reading pleasure, just make sure you play it low for effect:


I come from a planet called Earth.

We don’t talk much…to each other.

We walk upright, but just barely.

Our favorite pastime is war, we kill each other by the millions.

Our memories are selective and mostly short, 48 hours tops.

Willful ignorance is accepted and rewarded.

We are injected with what we should be, how we should be and where we should be.

Half of us are locked behind bars and the other half keep’s their fingers crossed.

Our information come from a can and that can comes from four people.

Our planet is a jewel in this our universe and we rape it with maximum friction and never say thank you.

Here plants are illegal and chemicals are handed out with side effects that are worst than the illness.

Our leaders are meat puppets for the wizard behind the curtain.

If you happen to be passing by this planet, please keep moving. They don’t like outsiders, hell, they don’t like me and I was born here.

We send probes to other worlds and we don’t even know our neighbors.

I love this place, where else can I go and be completely out of my mind and not stand out?

Most people live on a hand full of rice here and the rest throw food away.

We believe in fairy tales and we will kill you for them.

This planet is beautiful with landscapes and wide oceans, mountains tall, emerald rain forest with all manner beasts.

If you come for a visit just stay away from the natives.

Our Hearts Remain.

15 Sep


We played while bullets flew over head.


We play as they collect bodies broken and torn, we didn’t see.


Cooled battlefields are our playgrounds, not cooled for long as hate drifts in and out.


We are still children, our hearts remain, our spirits are not broken, our spirits are bent.


We will one day fight on the these playgrounds that are cooled battlefields.


Our hearts remain as children though not given a chance, we see this world through children’s eyes, we take to the sky and forsake the ground.


Days are still hopeful as flags burn and holes dug.


Smoke draped sunny days are still sunny days, even as mothers wail and dust settles around fresh Earth.


Our hearts remain as bullets fly and ominous skies bring hell fire and grief, we may not make it today, but it’s still day and we have some playing to do.

Robert Glasper Experiment, this is just as much fun watching as listening.

13 Sep


This is what Black brilliance looks like and of course sounds like. 

Chastity, a short story………I think.

10 Sep


The year is 2050 and Amerika is a much different place. Government bureaucracies now employ most of the serfs. They no longer have paper money or much freedom. All pretenses have been dropped and we are now told the government truth as to what and who we are. New laws that have been passed in this our new society are draconian at best and creep into every aspect of life, public and private. No walking on the streets after 6:00 pm, you can wear no bright colors during working hours, as to stay uniform in appearance. The laws that most affected people are the chastity laws.

Let me step back for a moment and explain to you just how Amerika had changed.

After the election of the second mostly Black president in 2016 and followed was the election of the first openly homosexual Asian woman, white Amerikans felt like they had lost the country for sure. Not only that, but the white birth rate had fallen to almost zero. This caused white people to panic and they rallied like never before in the history of this country. In 2024 they came together and elected what was more or less a fascist president who would change the direction of the country more than any since the civil war or they called it “the war between the states”. This would be the last election and the last administration in this country.

After the election in 2024 the new laws came into effect. The first laws caught most by surprise, but were welcomed none the less by the white populace. Let me mention that the racial make-up in the country was now 49% white and rest where non-white, mostly Black as the Latinos had made a mass exodus in order to fight for Mexico. They had the Mexico/South Amerikan war that lasted for 20 years and decimated a large portion of Latinos. The rumor is that this war was stoked by the U.S. government for the sole purpose of getting rid of Mexicans, illegal and otherwise. They had a massive campaign telling the Mexicans how noble it would be to go back and fight for your country or some such thing.  Though a sizable number of Mexicans still remained in the states and we still had the problem of illegals trying to get over here.

Back to the new laws. It was now punishable by death for anyone caught with people outside ones own race. This was mostly meant white people caught with Black people and more to the point, white women caught with Black men, as the mulattoes were nearing 10% and sided with neither race. The only reason for fraternization was for work and business situations. White people were encouraged to procreate and were promised assistance from the government for every pure white child born, until that child reached 24 years of age and could then legally start its own family.

All immigration was stopped cold. Only people of European stock could even apply to enter the country and in fact, they were sent for under the guise of running and starting business, teaching at university, doctors and the like.

Our southern border now had a fence that reached 30 feet at its lowest point and up to 100 feet at its highest. Most of the people who lived in the border towns were employed by the government. It was an arm of the Border Patrol called Eagle Talon and they had license to kill anyone who got within 25 feet of the fence, on either side. Also, you had to be a of a certain ethnic make-up to even apply for this new department. Of course that was unspoken.

The chastity laws only effected non-whites in a negative way and was mostly directed at Black men, who had the power to get rid of white people without any blood shed. And have a “good time” doing it, if “it” is what you’re into. Now, here’s why they were called the chastity laws and by now I’m sure you’ve come to some conclusions.

But please allow me to fill you in on why the white people are now openly afraid of Black people. This is where the story get’s really good if only for a moment.

After the election of the second mostly Black president, but not because of, something happened to Black people collectively. It seemed Earth had moved into our part of the universe as a switch had been tripped and we changed almost overnight and some changed overnight. They all seemed to have been awaken to who they are, but not just who they are but what they are and what they need to be doing all at once. Some elders had mentioned that Nommos had returned to the Earth and set things back according to the Universal Laws of Beings. The Nommos are from the Dogon tradition and are the beings from off world that imparted information to the Dogon that scientist are still trying to figure out at this very second. Anyway, the change had led to some of the most incredible behavioral mutations in the Black people of this country. The first thing that was noticed was a pride in one’s self was evident. Black people seemed to glow now, almost. With that the diets changed which panicked a lot of businesses in the country, some went belly up in months after the change. Also, the way Black people smelled changed as well, it was a smell that seem to attract goodness. One white news reporter fashioned it this way: they have a scent that reminds one of cool air and peace and if they happened to be laughing the scent is enhanced and has an Earthy tone as well. She goes on to say, I almost couldn’t pull myself away. Black on Black violence was a distant memory and seemed insane in hindsight. The vile self-hatred had vanished and Black people walked on a thin sheet of air or so it seemed. A thirst for knowledge of who we are was insatiable and you could see lights on in houses all over Black neighborhoods all night long and it was people reading and teaching–24 hours a day people were absorbing information. That was until the internet started to be interrupted, but only in Black areas, strange that. This awakening lead to a lot of public schools closing for lack of students. People laugh at the garbage being taught to Black children and how could we have stood for this for so long? A lot of new schools started to pop up that catered to the new Black mindset.

Of course this did not go unnoticed by white people and their paranoia had been made real. Black people didn’t start to kill white people, they didn’t want to even to be around them. It was all about Black people and healing families. They were all family now and I mean really family. The biggest change that was noticed were the newborn Black babies. They were born with a bluish hue about them, their eyes were Black as pitch and seemed as deep as the universe. They just sucked in all around them, light could not escape these eyes. It can not be explained in words because the words are still being thought of and these newborns are gonna be the ones that bring these words to us. Some were born with full sets of teeth, but didn’t require much food and the only food they would accept was mothers milk, if her diet had been proper. Which is why the first thing to change were people’s diet. Some children could talk verbally within a few hours after birth and all could communicate through telepathy instantly, as they had been talking with their mothers even before birth. These children were growing up incredibly fast and were walking about in six months and less.

This is what our race was supposed to be before the meddling of unseen forces handicapped us.

The fascist government seeing what was going on and knowing that it was only a matter of years before these children would completely takeover, ordered no more births of Black babies would be allowed this country. That was far to late, the change couldn’t be stopped… all. The gears of change were in motion, but no one knew at that time.

The government knew that something had to be done with these children, but what? Since the children grew so fast, they could not determine which were newborns and which were not. This was not gonna be stopped. So in mad desperation the government started to round up all Black men and this aspect of the chastity laws became barbaric. All Black men and boys from the age of 15 on were sterilized, but not in a humane way, but in the most painful way they could come up with. Metal clips were slipped into the head of penis and pushed all the way down into the scrotum. Once in place, the clip would be expanded and cutoff the flow of seminal vesicle. After a while the body would start reject the foreign material and cause infection and nerve damage rendering the male completely sterile and a lot of cases all functions would be lost and penis useless. Thus the name, The Chastity Laws.

As I said before the change had already taken place and these children were coming of age.

to be continued……..


This is part of a full book I’m formulating and thinking about. I welcome all ideas, improvements, critiques and please let me know if you spot any typos as any person writing knows, you can’t see your own typos after a while.