Rage Turned Inward

28 Apr

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Do you know me? then shut up.

Teeth grinding and I can’t even see.

Lips pursed tight and thoughts on fire.

Muscles inextinguishable and reality on yield.

I put my hands around the throat of my invisible tormentor and squeeze.

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I don’t wanna talk I don’t wanna listen I don’t wanna hear I don’t want you I don’t want me I don’t wanna come I don’t wanna go I don’t wanna feel I don’t wanna see I wanna be mad I wanna hate I wanna kill I wanna be killed I wanna hurt I wanna scream I want it dark I want it cold I gotta go I gotta disappear I gotta run I gotta choke I gotta hit I gotta kick I gotta burst I need to move I need stop I need to pierce I need to stab I need to bleed I need to be tight I need to be left I need to be alone.

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The world is safe, all these things are Rage Turned Inward. That is depression.

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16 Responses to “Rage Turned Inward”

  1. innerstanding isness April 29, 2012 at 1:08 AM #

    Reblogged this on innerstanding isness.

  2. TrojanPam May 2, 2012 at 12:47 AM #

    The picture says it all, I can definitely relate to those feelings, which remind me of a quote by someone (who I forget) who said something like this: “Most men (and women) live lives of quiet desperation.”

    Given the amount of recreational drugs, alcohol, and over-eating that afflicts the U.S. (and world) population, I suspect the above is more true than not.

  3. odell May 5, 2012 at 8:09 AM #

    True writting for the soul

  4. diaryofanegress May 27, 2012 at 9:15 AM #

    Powerful stuff….I love this!

    • hunglikejesus May 27, 2012 at 1:47 PM #

      This was a particularly bad morning for me and this just came to me. It came in a number of different ways, but this way more user friendly.

  5. diaryofanegress May 27, 2012 at 9:18 AM #

    Reblogged this on diaryofanegress.

  6. sepultura13 May 29, 2012 at 8:14 PM #

    Very powerful – I love it.

    • hunglikejesus May 29, 2012 at 8:25 PM #

      thank you so much for reading it.

      • diaryofanegress June 14, 2012 at 7:58 PM #

        I’ve read this piece about 10 times now and it rings truer and truer.

        • hunglikejesus June 15, 2012 at 6:23 AM #

          You could read this everyday to relieve some tension. It worked for me, just saying these words is relief.

          • T.Bee March 11, 2013 at 8:26 PM #

            Being black and living here we have all felt this at one time or another. I don’t know if, it ever really leaves. I feel it more on some days more than othere.

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